IT HURTS

i have no reason to live
i have nothing more to give
i lost it all in a lifetime of fall
but still i am fighting
day after day to find my way
until my soul hits a lighting
and then i will now
where i should go
why has god chosen me, why cant i by free
to experience the world how it should be
this aint a tragical speech
just one persons shriek
i cant find those words
who can describe how it hurts